I get these wonderful rushes as times. The doctors have said it's related to one of two things...either my thyroid or carcinoid syndrome. Whatever the case, it normally will come on very fast and go away within 1-3 minutes and just make me miserable. Then there's this...the one where it just goes totally out of whack and I'm ANGRY. I will lay on my bed and cry, be angry at the world, get so jumpy I have to take tranquilizers and even then I'll sometimes have to jump up and down like an idiot to release some of it. So right now I'm all drugged up, but still feeling really antsy and shaky. (tremor gets worse with it) I feel so...not like a Christian. It doesn't seem fair to have to try to stay loving and exude Christ from my pores at the same time that I'm trying to sweat out excess seratonin and TSH or whatever it is that's going nuts and causing this right now. It makes me mad! How do you handle yourself as a Christian when your body is ill and goes into overdrive, causing your EMOTIONS to be screwed up? Is it wrong to feel this way if you don't act on it? Is it any less of a sin if you act in anger that was strongly influenced by your own body's hormones messing with your brain?