Sometimes when people upset me or when I feel like I might get problems with somebody I imagine different scenarios in my mind and ask myself what I would do if this actually happens. And there are some scenarios where even thinking about them and playing them through in my head makes me really angry. For example recently I had problems with a pedantic professor who refused to rate my homework. I had to write it again. And then I gave it back to him. I haven't gotten any reply from him so far but I thought about what will I do if he's being such a jerk again and refuses to rate my homework? I think if he did this again I would not be able to calm down. I thought about what might happen. For example I might get into an argument with him. Maybe he would also show me that he simply doesn't like me and that's why he refuses to rate my homework. What would I do in such a situation? Because I need to get a certificate for this homework. I think in such a situation I would feel like everybody is against me. It's this typical feeling of being pushed against a wall which I always had back in high school when I was arguing with teachers. I always had this feeling that everybody is against me. What would you do if somebody treats you totally unfair and you also know that this person simply doesn't like you and the result of being treated unfair has huge consequences for you? Let's say your boss doesn't like you and fires you, what would you do?`Would you be able to stay calm? I think I might really freak out and grab this guy by his neck. But as a christian I should be totally calm and peaceful even if others treat me wrong. The only problem is that this doesn't work in real life. It works in theory but not in real life. At least not for me. I don't think I will ever reach this state where nothing affects you and where you simply walk around with a smile. I think you can only have such an attitude if you feel totally secure and know that nothing can happen to you, but how can you feel totally secure? Let's say your boss wants to fire you, then how could this not affect you? After all you need a job. Or lets say a professor refuses to rate my homework and I need the certificate for the homework in order to finish studying then how could this not affect me? All this stuff wouldn't affect me if I didn't need certificates and homeworks. If I was a millionaire and didn't even have to work then this wouldn't affect me at all. Then I wouldn't even bother with studying. But this isn't the case. Then how can you stay cool when you feel like others treat you wrong? Such things really make me fiery angry. When others treat me wrong I become so angry it's scary. But I know I shouldn't become angry, but I still do. I don't understand this. The bible says I'm a new creature then why do I still get angry?