I have been a member of the First Baptist church since the age of ten. In the mid 80's I began attending private school at a full gospel church in a town we lived in. Soon afterward, my entire family switched from the Baptist Church to the charismatic ministries. I have attended a number of different charismatic churches in the past 20 years and it pains me to make the statement I am about to becuase I have had many good experiences and near and dear relationships with my charismatic peers. But I am fed up wih members of my family and many friends who are charismatics. In the 20 years that I have been associated and intermittently active in these churches and have watched them degenerate into a bunch of fringe movements with increasingly goofy, thrill seeking congregations. The charismatic movements I am familiar with are the most self righteous, and judgemental of the Christian denominations that I know of - placing themselves in a closer walk with God because of the nature of (often unruly) their praise services, claims of miracles, etc... Most of the Baptist people I know have a perhaps, less dramatic experience with their worship, but their family life is usually stable and their children are usually well behaved and active in a ministry. This is in contrast to a lot of charismatics I know whose family life is a disaster and their kids are strung out on drugs, having premarital sex, and the reason for so many "outpourings" of emotion at the alter every sunday. It is difficult for me because I want to return to the Baptist denomination and raise my son in such a church but my relatives are so judgemental and insist that unless I'm "rolling in the isles" that I'm not experiencing a true walk with God. Currently I'm not going to church anywhere because my life is in limbo right now because I will be graduating with my master's degree in 6 months. I am currently living in Springfield , Missouri but I will have to move because the pay her sucks and I will never be able to make a good living for my family. When I move I plan to get far away from my relatives and get back into the Baptist church. Its really good to be able to come to a place like this and associate with people who I have something in common with.