I have had very few patients this morning so I have been doing some serious time in the word on this subject. I had it told to me a few days ago that to forgive my husband would mean to open that door to reconciliation. Well I took that to the word and heres the scriptures I found on forgiveness: Psalm 51:2--"Wash me thoroughly and repeatedly from my iniquities and guilt and cleanse me and make me wholly pure from my sin." Psalm 51:10--"Create in me a clean heart O God and renew a right preserving and steadfast spirit within me." 2nd Chronicles 7:14--"If My people who are called by My name shall humble themselves and pray, seek, crave, and require of necessity My face and turn from their wicked ways, then I will hear from heaven, forgive their sin and heal their land." 1st John 1:9--"If we admit freely that we have sinned and confess our sins, He is faithful and just and will forgive our sins and cleanse us from all unrighteousness (everything not in conformity to His will in purpose, thought and action.) When I went to study for verses on reconciliation there werent any except for ones for man to return (reconcile ) to the Lord. So the more I studied this this morning the more I realized that forgiveness is the key but is not necessarily the key to reconcilation but the key to God. I dont want to reconcile with my husband my life with him in it has ended but there are no hard feelings, because I reconciled the time my husband robbed from me, back to the Lord. And in turn all the hurt and pain my husband has caused me has been soothed over because the Lord is directing my paths as to where to go next. That doesnt mean Satan (or stan as my 5 yr old calls him) isnt going to rear his ugly head. There are going to be days where I let anger and jealousy of the situation get the better of me, life isnt all smooth sailing like he says in 1st Peter that satan is prowling like an angry lion seeking whom he may devour. The more I get into the word the more I see where God puts these "roadblocks" so to speak in our lives and where by clinging onto His garment we will get through them, although most of the time unscathed but with a deeper love and closeness in the Lord.