If I am posting this in the wrong forum, then I apologize. Often times someone says "God has spoken to me". Please pardon my ignorance on this, but exactly how do I differentiate Gods voice from my own inner voice? There is something that I have been struggling (maybe unsure is a better word) with for quite a few years and I dont really know if God is speaking to me, or its simply my own words. Back in 1999 I had an accident. Prior to this I led a pretty worldy life. Without going into detail, I will just say that I was not the greatest husband, father, or son. I wasnt close to the Lord, but just prior to my accident at the urging of my wife, we began to look for a church and I "felt" it was time to make a change in my life for the betterment of myself and my family. I wasnt into drugs or alcohol, wasn't (am not) a crimminal, just a sinner bound for hell. And once I came to that realization I knew it was time for a change. We found a church that my wife and I agreed would be best for us, but soon after I got a really good job offer that was in another state. Unsure if moving would be the right thing or not, I prayed and prayed for God to show me the right descion. While still struggling with the descion to move or stay home I had an accident that left me hospitalized for 2 weeks and unable to work for 1 year. When I got released from the hospital, I was in a hospital bed that was put in my living room for the next 3 weeks. Alot of things went thru my mind during this time as I was so unassure of what my future was to hold. Laying there one night I just prayed....I said "Well God, you got me. I cant run away from you anymore, you took that ability away from me. So I surrender. I give my life and my faith to you Lord." A very simple prayer, but a very powerful one. In the coming year I got closer to God than ever before. I read the bible everyday, any books I could get my hands on, and just generally felt at peace like I never had before. I look back on that time as a blessing. I think, actually I believe that the accident was Gods way of getting my attention. I had backsliden for so long that I just continued to run from God even when I knew what I was doing was wrong. Since I never made time for a relationship with him, he made the time for me. By far, even in the face of mounting bills and uncertainty, that was the best I have ever felt spiritually. But I was in such a controlled enviroment ie, not working, at home everyday with Gods word, no outside temptation, I was unsure whether I would be able to continue my new ways. After being released medically so I could return to work I found that with all the temptation around me it would be an ongoing struggle to keep my faith. To this day I still struggle, and will until my last day here on earth but that is just sin waging a war against me, as with any other Christian. I say all that because it leads me back to my inital question about God speaking. During that year I KNEW what God was saying to me. And over the course of the last 9 years or so I seem to think everyday that I need to be in the Ministry in one way or another. But there is my delima. I cant honestly say that its the Lord speaking to me or whether its just me planting the seed in my own mind. Literally a day does not go by without me thinking about it. I have prayed and prayed and I just cant come to a descion. And what makes it all more difficult for me is that currently my wife and I arent in church. Due to professional responsibilities most Sundays and Wed we both work. Its really a trying time for me and my family but I know thru faith that things will eventually work themselves out.