just last night i watched a conversation about healing on tv. there were 2 conservative pastors and they all said they have done healing services but they weren't about healing but rather about blessing the person. they both said they have never witnessed a miraculous healing. this was so depressing. watching it really dragged me down. i mean this made everything look so ridiculous. they talked about jesus and his miracles but at the same time they have never witnessed anything like this. doesnt this look ridiculous somehow? it looks as if these people simply arent realistic and simply live in a dream world because even though they have never witnessed a real miracle they talk about jesus miracles but at the same time it doesnt even seem to bother them that they dont witness miracles. i want to see miracles. otherwise i would feel totally dumb if i simply talk about them and have nothing to back them up with. i mean this simply looks ridiculous when you talk about miracles and claim they exist but you've never seen them. if your only sources are other people which claim that they have seen miracles then how can you even be so sure they are real? i mean isn't it the way that christians simply rely on miracles which others claim to have experienced? there are many books out there about christians which lived in the past which write about healing revivals and countless miracles but how do we know they are telling the truth? what if they are frauds and we christians read their books and think they are real and totally rely on them and they're not even real? i guess what I'm trying to say is that always having to rely on what others tell you and never seeing it with your own eyes really sucks. i have been in healing services and never seen a real miracle even though they advertised that people get healed but all I saw was people getting healed from back pains or headaches.... great. this is stuff which you cannot even check. why are the people with headaches healed but not the people in wheelchairs? i think that this makes everything look so ridiculous like in a bad movie and then i ask myself why they aren't healed. healing is such a complicated subject. on the one hand we have those which do not even seem to believe in miracles anymore and on the other hand we have those which believe that healing is our right and that we simply have to claim it to receive it. both views seem wrong to me.