When I was saved, I was 16. Now I was VERY immature for my age. My journal entries from that time indicate I was operating on a 10 year old social/emotional level. (even though my schoolwork was age appropriate) I went to college and proceeded to live for self. I did all kinds of horrible college-party type living that I cringe to think about today. At one point, I decided not to live as a Christian anymore, even though I told God I was never going to renounce Christ as Lord...I didn't stop praying or believing, I just stopped reading the Bible and going to church (probably so my conscience wouldn't poke me from my lifestyle). Now at some point in my 20's it all became clear to me what living for Christ really meant. I became a true Christian then. I read the Bible, all of it, not just the highlighted passages that made you feel good. I am constantly trying to become closer to Christ, be more like Him, and do all I can for Him. A slow road, but very definitely the right one. I rejoined the church. And my ways got cleaned up. Of course there is still a lot to fix, but just as Rome wasn't built in a day...neither did it fall in a day. I have years of sinful living to clean up, and most of it is gone, but some of it still grips me. Foul language, is the biggest sticker. Boy is it hard to get rid of those! They just slip out when I least expect it! Anyways, the point of me telling you all of that is I feel a little concerned that I may have ruined all chances of gaining the blessings given to believers. A lot of Christians seem to be able to pinpoint the Baptism of the Holy Spirit in their lives. Does the fact that I have no "incredible experience" indicate that I have not been baptised by the Holy Spirit? I know without a doubt that I am born again. I know that I am on the right path towards rightous Christian living. And I know that sometimes I feel the spirit moving in me when I pray for others. I just want to know more. I want to learn all about everything of God and not miss anything He offers us. I am looking for a good book to help me, since the Bible is so rich with information about His spirit, I need something to help me pull it all together. Thanks so much!