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  1. Matt22:37-39

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    BEEN THINKING THE LAST FEW DAY OF ALL THE BIG AND SMALL GOD NUGGETS. It’s been almost a year this month since I came forward to make God #1 in my life…That was the actual message. I am sure if one scrolled back to this time last year you would still see me, Edie and the core of who I am….but you would hopefully see a closer walk with God…I’m getting to that 100% mark I had mentioned in an earlier post. One of Satan 0…….100 God. It is only as we allow God to control in even the little things in our life. Can the Holy Spirit do His job. Remember God has a part and I have a part. It is also about keeping “Short Accounts”…I will be writing about this next today, Lord willing.

    Anyway, There are many factors that were involved in this process of repentance, faith, trust, self control, and forgiveness of others…basically the FRUITS OF THE SPIRIT. I’ve been even stronger in the past as a new Christian for a good 14 years. So I know what it is like to be all over the scale. 1999 started a decline and soon after to the point of my lowest after my divorce 5 years ago…Like my weight I will only go so far before major work needs to be done. I still have a skinny mind lol….Obviously what I was doing in the last few years wasn’t working ; I finally put that FAITH (that which was stolen from me) out there and said over and over OK, God let’s see what you can do, I’ll yield to you the best of my ability and cry a lot too. Baby steps, I kept record for the most part. I came to the point where I wasn’t taking in UNSAFE people and bad circumstances, out of desperation of taking the house back over. I felt like God and the church left me so I needed to find new replacements, hmmm, not such a good idea. I assumed in MY thinking I can make it work, (I’m in control) when in reality I should have seen the signs, I mean how many of the same cookie cutter do I need to see even before the renters before I “GET IT?”…evidently many. I kept making the mistake and “gave the benefit of the doubt”…”do the Christian thing”….when I should have trusted my instincts and God. Now I am excellent at it and for several months have had nothing but GOOD people in my home and in my life in general. I only choose PROFESSIONALS now, people who have a life and job in my home. I may have one man coming and another possible woman (animal person) temp 2 months and I have temp right now. I am thankful for all the beautiful inside and out young people my kids age that he has put in my life…which make me feel young again and they are my boys ages, so I get an idea of how these ages are again. Nate 27 I’ve only seen 6 maybe 7 times in over 7 years. And I’m thankful for the adults I have recently met as well.

    Anyway, I honestly believe this is because I WAITED Isaiah 40:31…”but they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall walk and not be weary they shall run and not be faint.”

    I prayed throughout the day, as I had no one else to talk to and how could I not cry out to God, ask question and seek answers. Just might be why He had me so alone. I have learned to be alone, not saying I like it and I that am at total peace with it. But I don’t have the bits of anxiety I use to have which until my divorce I never had before. The spurts of depression are getting less, (for one holiday and B-days and the sun help lots) for as I see God work I am seeing a PURPOSE a HOPE, a light at the end of the tunnel. I had a feeling if I just LET GO of the “Baiters” and “Unsafe” people in my life God would provide good ones and He has (still want a lifelong mate and best friend who lives nearby) for the most part surrounded me with safe people and even one that are believers…lol…He has provided safe churches or so I hope so…only time will tell. I always said last year and this one was my time of RESTORATION did I not? NO MORE DRAMA!

    I have found restoration with school mates in the past, through old friends and acquaintances thanks to Face book. Even a family member who didn’t last long cause they didn’t maybe like my God posts, not sure as we never talked, ad yet live in the same town, so do his parents...so I am sure things about me got back to my parents, that is ok, I have nothing to hide, if I did I wouldn’t have put it on FB. Even though most of what I write on here and other places isn’t acknowledged, God has shown me He is doing it through me, it isn’t about me, so keep going, don’t be ashamed if you said too much, if you stepped on some toes, if you pissed some off and they deleted you…keep writing and sharing, for I am with you. I never expected you to be PERFECT. God has sent people to tell me “Everything is going to be ok”…basically strangers. That was weird..Don’t let Satan lie to you about WHO YOU ARE IN CHRIST and HIS PLANS FOR YOU AS YOU FOLLOW HIM. That is all we are called to do is follow/yield/submit and I see why. I am not to control others life much less my own….I find the closer I am to God in my relationship with Him, He makes it so MY DESIRES are His…I knew this as I’ve been there before….my post on the HOLY SPIRIT explained how this works. The work comes from the INSIDE OUT not the outside in.

    I’m able to enjoy where I am at right now, Like Paul said in Philippians. I am thankful I can do what I want I am stress free. Funny thing is this is something I pretty much have always had since my ex always let me be who I was and do what I wanted, sad to say to the extreme…he trusted me and I him. But his love for me bordered on serious enabling. Anyway, point being…I am glad I can write when I feel led, I am thankful, I can get up and dance or play my tambourine when I feel like it, watch tv, or whatever. Just had a lady stop by to tell me a few goats were in the rd…OK, everything on pause and I thought hey this is my opportunity, she looks like a country gal with her border collie in the car and all. So I asked if she wouldn’t mind helping get the goats from one pasture to the other….and we did real quick like and I thanked God for such an opportunity…something I tried by myself a few weeks ago and only half followed, and those half got out of where I put them…OH no, have to close that gate before they do it again…be right back…ok, that’s how they got out last time 4th pasture. So cool to be “free” in that sense when many are not. Who knows, surrounded by the right people I might even enjoy my life again. I’m finding it easier to FORGIVE the way I talked about… like the school yard kids who are told by an adult “say you are sorry”…when they really don’t want to. True forgiveness isn’t mandated it should just flow. It should come from the inside out and now it does more than it use to.

    I’m thankful for all the conformations in person and via the internet, on my calling or through the Lords voice, whether in my thoughts or when reading. Why do I so often DOUBT that which has so been confirmed?…is it my adult child inside of me reminded me of all the negative remarks that were said to me growing up? By both peers and adults, those who were supposed to be “on my side” and were suppose to protect me?”But I know better…I know they are the LIES that I talk about…IT AINT ABOUT ME…unless it is about me, than I need to make things right…NEXT TOPIC will be on that. It is about God’s will and glory and others. And is why I keep on keeping on.

    And that is why you got to keep keeping on.
     
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    From all that you have shared and posted about yourself, all of it shows that you are an awesome person!!!!!
     
  3. Matt22:37-39

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    Awe, thank you...God is awesome too, without Him I am nothing...:)
     
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    Yes, compared to you, God is awesome 'too'. :rolleyes:

    How cordial it is of you to say God is awesome 'too' whilst such awesomeness is held in comparison to your person.

    It all sounds, well, patronizing.

    Please tell us more of you and your awesomeness. In the end don't forget to remind us of your humility.

    :thumbsup:
     
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    You actually read that mini novel? :laugh:

    I don't have the patience for it. :tonofbricks:
     
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    You stinker! If I were in Tennessee I'd...I'd..I'd...NEVERMIND!!!!!!!!!!

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    lol...I stopped reading after three words into his thread.

    An old carpenter told me it took seconds to discover another carpenter. He's right.

    I knew this one was on the wrong track before the page refreshed when I clicked on his thread.

    It is all about him. This truth he will never discover.
     
  7. Matt22:37-39

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    Like I said WE have a PART and GOD has a PART.

    You don't think at the end God is going to say to the faithful..."well done thy good and faithful servant"...is He not going to pass out crowns for faithfulness, and for suffering and all he has created us to be, if we allow Him to work in our lives?

    Seriously, if you don't like and love what God has made (YOU) then who else will?

    So preacher are you a lair or a hypocrite...which is it...you were not honest in your first post to me?...wow, if not, you have now been marked UNSAFE!
     
  8. Matt22:37-39

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    Again a facebook post I felt might help someone here....if they want it...lol
     
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    Yes!!! You have a part and GOD ALMIGHTY has a part too! How generous of you to allow HIM to have a part!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

    Ahhhhh! This brings tears to my eyes!

    God has succombed to you helping Him -- He needed your help and you in your free will helped Him -- how wonderful!!!! After this you give us your testimony of how utterly awesome a person you are!!!

    Tell us more of you and help us to sing your praises as you do!!!!
     
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    Maybe Ive got ADD, but can I suggest a 3 paragraphs max for all posts? Just a thought...not a criticism. :)
     
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    You do have ADD, which is why I've mailed you Bakon Vodka.
     
  12. Matt22:37-39

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    Sorry "preacher" (of what hate?) but I and others don't not see my writings the same way you do

    You sound jealous and a hater and one of those "baiter and unsafe" people I talk about.

    Your true colors are very bright indeed...draw closer to God and He can change you for the better...that was my message if you so missed it

    *SHAKES HEAD"
     
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    No one is twisting your arm to read...don't like it don't read..I write what God tells me to, no matter how long.
     
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    Sorry.... if it isn't Polish (SOBIESKI Preferred) No Fruit & No Bacon. :tongue3:
     
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    “RESIST THE DEVIL AND HE WILL FLEE FROM YOU”…This verse has been brought up a few times now lately in my mind. Taking all the pieces that I am receiving from God’s word, and a few books I am reading or have read. I am seeing how these pieces fit into a whole.

    I am sure I am not the only one who struggles with God’s sovereignty, man’s free will, a fallen world and the powers of evil forces. These struggles tend to show up more often during challenging times, than they do during times of rest. I can look back and remember when I was able to “Resist The Devil” (Satan cannot be everywhere so I say evil forces) when I had peace and faith NO MATTER WHAT! I DO know WHY, HOW, and WHAT made it change, and who can blame me, really?

    I read the book…GOD WINS!...so if He wins, than he wants me to WIN WITH HIM….we talked in bible study last night about “RUNNING A RACE FOR THE PRIZE”…As an ATHLETE, I understand this concept. Hebrews12 So then let’s also run the race that is laid out in front of us, since we have such a great cloud of witnesses surrounding us. Let’s throw off any extra baggage, get rid of the sin that trips us up, 2 and fix our eyes on Jesus, faith’s pioneer and perfecter. He endured the cross, ignoring the shame, for the sake of the joy that was laid out in front of him, and sat down at the right side of God’s throne.

    WHAT DOES THIS RACE ENTAIL?......

    EPH 6:12, “For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the powers, against the world forces of this darkness, against the spiritual forces of wickedness in the heavenly places.”….too me if this verse is true than that means I really don’t have a PART IN THE STRUGGLE…I have a part in the PLAN, the race, but not one that involves the WORK (all religion is based on WORKS) God does the work, we do the REST, the ABIDING, the YEILDING, the SUBMITTING, the TRUSTING…see the picture? This concept is so simple, yet at the same time so hard, because our FLESH and our WILL wants to get in the way. We have a hard time understanding, trusting and seeing what God is doing or what he wants…life is so CONTRADICTING and sometimes if we just go by experience, His word can be too.

    But God wants one thing to remain TRUE NO MATTER WHAT….TRUTH, because truth is light and light gets rid of darkness…turn on a light and the dark disappears. That truth is to always be based on God’s CHARACTER and who He says He is….I AM! Even if I “feel” He doesn’t love me, His word says He does and my salvation alone proves it. His TRUTH is based on His word; I can rest assured the answers are in it. His TRUTH is based on the sealing of the Holy Spirit and my position in heaven right now. His TRUTH is that all my past, present and future sins have been forgiven, so no need to be burdened down with guilt or regrets….just keep striving forward in the race, even though I’ve tripped over a few hurdles and got hurt in the process.

    Anyway, as I REST in these truths that is the place God wants me to be…I guess it isn’t much FUN for Satan and his minions when you just keep ignoring them and not give in. That how it is in real life, take the school playground the kid (maybe this was me?) who gets picked on…all the bullies want is a reaction. So as one draws closer to God in FAITH, no matter what happens, 3 things should happen. Like Saul when David played his harp, the evil spirit left, so the presence of evil leaves and goes somewhere else…and if they don’t, at least you won’t care cause your faith and trust is in your fathers hands, not your own….or both happen simultaneously.

    That is why this verse below is so important in a Christian’s life who desires to live Godly and do God’s will. If you want to go your own way, you can and if you are really His, you will “STRUGGLE” (God doesn’t want us to) also in 3 areas…one as He tries and bring you back, knowing the work He wants to do IN you isn’t done…or He just might let you go so far into destruction, you will died (we know many a celebrity who said they were born again whose life was cut short) or you may live a life of ease and not be used at all…Satan doesn’t bother those who are not a threat to him. He knows he lost the battle, but he wants to take as many down with him as he can and hurt the name of Christ….and what better way than to cause ones faith in God to be defeated. But since the battle is the Lords these verses are the key in how to “overcome and resist the devil”…..

    THE ARMOR OF GOD

    10 Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. 11 Put on the full armor of God so that you can take your stand against the devil's schemes. 12 For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. 13 Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand. 14 Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of RIGHTEOUSNESS in place, 15 and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of PEACE. 16 In addition to all this, take up the shield of FAITH, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. 17 Take the helmet of SALVATION and the sword of the Spirit, which is the WORD OF GOD. 18 And pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests. With this in mind, be alert and always keep on praying for all the saints. 19 Pray also for me, that whenever I open my mouth, words may be given me so that I will fearlessly make known the mystery of the gospel, 20 for which I am an ambassador in chains. Pray that I may declare it fearlessly, as I should.
     
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    Jeeze, Im joking. Lighten up! :smilewinkgrin:
     
  17. Matt22:37-39

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    jokes are truths covered in lies...
     
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    Yes and I did a wonderful job of fulfilling my part which was to sin myself into hell. God saved me, while I was "yet a sinner". I had no part in God's part.
     
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    No he's not. He's just mean. He has bulldogs! grrrrrr! :laugh::laugh:
     
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    You forgot the chickens & the Turtles & the Gold Fish :tongue3: :laugh:
     

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