I am depressed and finding it difficult to stay positive on a regular basis. When I am alone, singing songs and hymns helps a lot, but it's tough to be alone between work and family. I'm finding a lot of disappointment in my church family...though the place is decent for the most part, an evangelist came in that was horrible and really triggered some nasty memories, which started me down this spiral. Normally, it's relatively easy for me to stay positive no matter what the situation, often using humor to cope or just having faith that things will work out, which they always do. But...one thing keeps happening after the other. Over and over and over and over and it's wearing me down so very much and keeps triggering memories of things that normally wouldn't be on my mind and often, I don't even realize they ARE on my mind until tears are rolling down my face and I'm suddenly lost in thought. A number of times, it's right at the verge of falling asleep and BAM! A very bad memory or a horrible thought about the future pops up. I don't get it and can't seem to fight this one off with music and praying. The feelings of being stuck and overwhelmed are...well, overwhelming. ?????