Hello all. I really like the information on here and am excited about the depths of the biblical knowledge on this website. I am a born again Christian. I was saved 14 years ago in an IFB church. After about 7 years of faithfully serving the Lord I ran into some problems with some believers and basically lumped all baptists together with IFB and went off on my own. This was a terrible mistake. My walk with the Lord was severely hurt and I fell into sin and addiction. This is hard for me to admit. I've repented of my sin and have forgiven people and offered apologies to those I've hurt. After seeing how far I've fallen I feel as though I've gone too far and even lost my chance of salvation. These feelings go against what I believe the bible teaches in that Christ keeps those that are his. I allowed certain troubling bible passages to confirm with myself that I could ever inherit the kingdom of God. I am so unworthy. I do not deserve Gods grace and I've sinned against the one I Love. My heart is broken. any encouragement from scripture that there is still hope for me? Is my problem simply a misunderstanding of God's forgiving character. Is this simply a massive attempt of the enemy to keep me in sin? the Holy Spirit will not leave me right? I see this nowhere in the New Testament. I also see that there is only 1 unpardonable sin. I just want to stop being fearful and serve the Lord again. I've also suffered from mental illness since I was 12. So there's that. Anyway I'm not excusing my sin because I have to own it and I've confessed all of it. I just want to be in perfect harmony with my Lord again.