This OP will be one of tremendous transparency because it means admitting before your peers on this board that there are "those moments" in your day, week, month and life that you actually come to the place where you ask yourself is heaven for real? Is God really there? And do I really, truly know that I am saved and forgiven? I talk to believers all the time who have those moments, and it takes courage to admit momentary lapses in faith or trust. Yet these folks, like me, can admit there are times when we do have some lapse in faith and doubt. The intent behind this OP is not to out anyone, but rather to have you share what you do to counter those moments and to put the behind you in order to move forward and even closer to God!