let's see... a cousin has been diagnosed with lung cancer (don't know how bad as they keeping bringing in more and more oncologists)... an uncle of mine was found dead in his home earlier this week... another uncle has at least partial blockages in every artery in his heart and they can't do anything because his lungs are so bad, plus his esophagus ruptured right after they called a halt to the attempts at putting in stints (he is still in ICU). Add to that the overall holiday hustle and this being another year without Dad and it is just... hard. I don't really know what to ask you all to pray for. Of course for my family and their needs, but for me as well. All of this is dragging me down emotionally as well as spiritually in that I am struggling with things that have not bothered tempted me for a long, long time. Thanks to you all.