I grew up in a Christian family, SBC to the core. Baptized at age 9, called to ministry at 18. Went to a Baptist college and attended 2 SBC seminaries and graduated from the 2nd one. Did denominational work for nearly 20 years. I have seen much controversy, heard and seen hurtful and spiteful things, all done for "the sake of the Gospel and 'Baptists'". I have seen many good Christian men and women hurt. Envy, pride and inflated egos abound. Then I became a statistic of the unemployed, and my departure was not very caring, let alone very Jesus-like. My non-Baptist friends have been the most supportive, caring and loving these several months. Lately it seems that Baptists are more "against" than they are "for" anything and are competing against one another. Can I be healed from the hurt, and then remain "one of them"? Shall I look elsewhere or become one of the growing disillusioned??