I was reading through the Bible yesterday, and read that if the Holy Spirit is blasphemed, it will not be forgiven. I cried when I read it because I don't know if I ever have. It seems is if I may have in an act of defiance against my aunt. Then I got to thinking that, if I were unforgiven for this sin, would I still feel God's love? I am overwhelmed by it. He is in everything I do, every decision I make. If I am unable to be made clean in his eyes, would He have been willing to reach out to me when He did? Other thoughts Ive have were that, maybe my purpose is to guide my children. I can be used by God to bring His other children to Him. If I have blasphemed, then not being able to see God and his Son is my punishment. I accept that. But would I be given a false hope?