Have you ever thought about this? Imagine God exists but God has no power over you. He cannot send you to hell and you also won't die. If you want to you can simply live on this planet forever. Would you still try to obey God and ask him for forgiveness every time you sin or would you sooner or later become tired of this and simply tell God to leave you alone and then do your own thing? Aren't we often motivated simply by fear of punishment? Sometimes all this asking for forgiveness really gets on my nerves because not every time when I ask for forgiveness I really feel sorry. Sometimes I simply do it because I'm scared that if I don't do it God will punish me. For example I don't always feel terrible when I have a sinful thought and then fall on my knees and beg for forgiveness. Such things simply happen and I'm used to it, this means that when this happens I don't feel totally sorry all of a sudden. But when I simply say "God please forgive me" without feeling anything then it's like an automatism. Do you always feel totally sad when you sin no matter what sin it is? Or are there sins which you register but which don't make you feel totally sad? I don't know but somehow there is a dissonance. The fact that God also has so much power and that he could punish you makes it hard to not fear him but when you fear him then how can you feel well when you're in heaven? I'm not scared of my father. If I was scared of my father then most likely I would avoid him and try not to make him angry. I would rather sit in my room all day and not even talk to him. Do you know what I mean? But what do you do when you're scared of God who is much more powerful than your own father?