Calling

Well..I'm not THAT far from being a youth..I'm in college. God has called me to be a teacher, do mission work, write, and I think lead worship and/or speak at girls conferences. I know..big dreams for a small town girl..but it's what I feel God has called me to do. I used to want to be married by 22, and have no less than five children. Now, I don't think I'll ever be married. I have a wonderful gift of no hubby so that I can focus all my attention on my Heavenly Fiance, Jesus Christ, who is coming for me soon. I am truly seeing what the "gift of singleness" is. And I've never felt more secure or content. It's a mystery..but it surely is that peace that passes all understanding. So..I'll graduate in a couple of years, then work for a few years to save up money, and head off to seminary. Don't know where I'll go from there. Yes, I'm already "working" in areas that God has called me to. I do short term mission work, I write (and i'm taking a class to learn about writing) and my friend and I have started having special worship services every few months, just to have a special time for our church to come together and worship. Kayla..trust God. He'll lead you where He wants.
I didnt' mean to write a novel. So, until next time,
Grace

 

Kayla, I can't remember, but I was either talking to you or my friend Marie the other day about this. {I really need to put my brain in more often...it's truely a wonderful thing! } Anyways which ever one of you it was asked me that question.
Now I've gotton some rather interesting reactions from the folks that have asked me this. My grandma thinks I'm a little out of it when it comes to this and I've got an english teacher who has a very liberal opinion of women, and she in her words says I'm wasting my life, some folks don't know what to think of me, and some of the ladies in my church who asked me this were surprised but I think they were pleased. But since ya asked us all, I guess I'll post anyways. Some might think I am out of my mind [and hey, I don't deny I'm a little wacky} but I guess we all got opinions!
My family is pushing me to become a nurse, particularly the kind that works with the elderly. I couldn't do it. One of my patience would die, and I'd cry my eyes out for a long time. I'm very easily distracted, and don't always get instructions the first time. My dad says that's a nice way of saying I'm ditzy. I just don't think I'd concentrate long enough to give medicine or anything since I am that way. And I just have this thing for breaking stuff. Not intentionaly, but it kinda just happens....I could just imagine knocking someones I.V. over in the floor, dropping important things. I couldn't do it.
I have no peace about that. I do know I have a deep desire with in me to be wife and momma. I want to marry a godly man who could love me second to God, and who is willing to lead our home. I want to be a submissive wife, loving, and godly. I want to support him in all God leads him to do no matter what it is. I want to stand beside him in good and in bad, because I'm not foolish enough to think life will be easy just because we are saved. I want to be a house wife, to cook and clean for my family....which means I have A WHOLE BUNCH to learn when it comes to that!
If God wills, I want to have quite a few kids, and raise them for His glory. I want to teach them about God, salvation, God's word, and important things they'll need to know early on. I want to watch them grow both physicaly and spiritualy. I would like to homeschool, so I intend to go to college for some training in teaching. I want to disipline in love and not anger. I guess I'd like to give them the best, and maybe any mother would. I want my home to be God ordered. I've seen what happens when God's order is ignored, and I don't want to repeat mistakes from others before me {I mean I've made my own mistakes as it is!!}
I pray everyday about these things. I know I've a lot to learn before I'm grown, and so I need God's guidance. I pray He'd mold me into what I need to be, because I see plently lacking that I want changed. I pray God will prepare my future husband for me, as in he will be prepared for what I am. I honestly think God would have to if he was gonna put up with me! And I don't say that trying to put myself down, but I honestly beleive that. There is so much I have to learn, and I'm not always quick to catch on, so this guy will need patience by the tons. I also pray daily that God would take care of Him, and guide him daily, whoever he is. I'm not sure if I'm odd to pray for someone I've probably never met, but though I most likely don't know Him, my Lord does.
I cry and pray over this so often. I guess because I'm afraid I'll fail. Fail my children or husband, or even worse, my Lord. I'm also afraid of people's rejection of me. I guess maybe it's cause I dealt with that so early in life, but whatever the reason, I didn't even know HOW to love anyone untill GOd saved me, and even though I knew He saved me, for the longest time I struggled with the fact He loved me. I kinda do that with a lot of people too. I'm so afraid someone I love dearly will reject me. I'm so afraid They'll all leave me sometimes, so I pray for God's grace. I guess I'm afraid of wheither or not a person really could love me so much he'd want to spend his life with me. I have a hard time thinking anyone would love me forever except God. And like I said, I doubted evn God's love for awhile after I was saved. So I pray God would hepl me with that, and give me grace. I'll leave it all with Him, because He's over all. I want Him to have the absolute preiminance in my life, and I long to glorify Him and serve Him as long as I have breath, so I'll just keep giving my hopes, dreams, fears, failures and everything else over to Him and trust Him to lead me in His way.
~Miss Abby
Proverbs 31:30 KJB

 

Oh come on now! It wasn't that long! Hehe, I think it must be cause my screen name here is so long, cause when I'm actualy typing a reply it dosn't look too long, course once it's posted it takes up a page! Anyways, I apologize for all the "novels" of mine posted around the BB, cause with any thing I seem to talk CONSTANTLY and unfortunatly for all a ya'll, it carries over into my typing!
~Miss Abby
Proverbs 31:30 KJB

 

Abby... I wouldn't be surprised if you went to college and found yourself a Pastor in Training to marry No joke! My pastor's family consists of 9 kids... 6 biological 3 adopted... and they couldn't be happier

personally 3 kids would be enough for me... I am very quick to anger/frustration!


I feel called to Hollywood... now don't break out your Bibles... I feel that Hollywood is a HUGE mission field that is ignored/untouched by many... God's really pushing me towards that.(Because 4 years ago I wouldn't have had the guts to say anything infront of a crowd... now I direct dramas for church!)

 

Miss Abby,
I am in my 30's... My wonderful wife has been married to me for 12 years now. We decided when our first child was born that she would only take an outside job if we had the financial need, and then only for as long as it takes to get past it. Thank God we only have needed for her to work a total of about 6 or 7 months in 12 years. She works hard taking care of myself and homeschooling our girls.. I think she believes as well as I do that is what God has called her to do.
As for me I know I am called to be a pastor. I surrendered to His service as a minister a little over a year ago. Prior to that, I was lay minister to the youth group at our last church. Now I am working as the director of children's ministries. Pastor has given me some pulpet time, but I really would rather minister to children, youth and their families. Right now we are seeking God's will in moving to a less dry environment. We know He wants us to move on, but not sure how to do it.

Just keep your eyes and ears open so He can tell you what His plan for you is.

 

God has called me to be a man of God... and this is my ultimate goal... As for a future..I will probably be either a composer for Godly music orginizations or I will be in the business feild....Investing, stocks, bonds, lending or anything in the financial aspect of it. I've really been praying hard about my future... I'm am so excited about what God will do.

Michael

 

God has been changing my future I for a while thought God might want me to go into Jewish missions in israel but He is changing that and now it is really a passion for youth. So i believe God is going to have me work with you.