I REALLY need help and prayer!

Hi,

I REALLY have a HUGE prayer request! And its quite URGENT!

My husband Joshua just got home and he is practically breaking down with stress and other things. He has so much on his shoulders. Pressure from work, school, and now graduating. And his parents.

Well, He opened up our bills and we some how bounced by like $500 AND we haven't even payed rent this month yet. We can't figure out what happened. We went through our statement together and we just can't figure it out. There is some mistake. We think maybe a calculation error on our part. We just don't know. But we are going to be bouncing with bills and other things. And we are fearful.

And Josh is just freaking out which scares me. He is in charge of our bills and our household. I am disabled. So, when he freaks out I sort of panick. Which isn't good because I suffer from Post Traumatic Stress, Severe Depression, Severe Anxiety and panic with agorphobia (bouts of it at times), and Severe dependent personality disorder. I had some sort of breakdown recently after my grandmother (who was my best friend) died. So, I am just a mess. So, when Josh breaks down (he has post traumatic stress and depression too I am pretty sure!)I don't know what to do! I am so sick. I only can do my programs that I am put into around the community. This is so hard.

I feel like I should be working now but I can't yet. I just am too ill. Somedays I can't get out of bed. Its not Satan. So, please don't write me and say that. I am just ill. I have a great Christian doctor who is getting me off meds and getting me normalized.

The scary part is that our bank is going to bounce each and every thing that comes through from now on and we are not even getting another paycheck for 2 weeks! And that money was for other things. That check was for was to pay off our school loan (his) and then we were supposed to go to my good friends wedding - (who was a bridesmaid in my wedding) - her wedding is in Wisconsin - like 6 hours away from here.

Then in Wisconsin I was going to see my sister. And finally walk into my grandmothers house and see grandpa. The first time since she died. I haven't been into the house yet. I am nervous. Its been so hard. I am grieving so hard!

We have no money for anything now. Not driving anywhere! Including the trips! Oh my my birthday was to go see the Judy Garland house up North in Minnesota. There is a festival for her every year. Margaret O"Brien was going to be there! Oh well...that is materialistic!

No money for me to get to my hospital programs. And my other therapy groups and such. Not my medication. Not anything!

I am just going to pray. That is all I can think of.

I am going to fast (not eat) and pray for the next few days. Will you join me? - PLEASE! Fast and pray? Or at least pray? I know that my body isn't strong to fast...but I am going to try a partial fast.

Josh is just upset. I hate that I am disabled and stuck like this. He is such a good man and SOOO good to me. SOO good! Please pray for him!

PLEASE pray for this whole thing. We are going to get REALLY in debt by all of this. They may evict us!

I need to calm down...breathe....and know that God is in control and just trust in his promises to take care of us.

Please Pray that not much goes through our bank (bouncing). They will give us a $30 fee each time.

Josh also starts school so we will need gas money! And my programs! UGH!

Ok..I need to calm down..PLEASE pray! I hope this makes sense. I don't know if I make sense. I am going through so much sometimes I don't know if I make sense.

AND please continue to pray for All the stuff I am going through with this STUPID Paxil withdrawl syndrome. I am so forgetful and going through so many symptoms!

Thanks in advance for praying for me - us!

Josh is also under tremendous pressure from his parents to get into a pharmacy school. And his last chance - Michigan - he is on a waiting list. PRAY for us. We have gone through so much since 2001!

I just need prayer for MY WHOLE LIFE right now and my husbands....Especially for financial help ASAP to come to us. I know we have to be patient...I am trying to tithe...I am trying to go to church..but I haven't done either in a while. I hope God isn't punishing us. I was taught most of my life God was a God of punishment. Not of love. I hope he is loving us.

I love God so much! And he has helped us so much. We need him. I don't want him to feel like we only go to him when we are in trouble. I want God around me all the time. I want him to use me. I want to plant seeds for Christ!

Oh, and I am SO tearful over my brother moving to Alaska. And I have my sister with lupus who could use prayer. And all sides of my family and Joshua's for salvation.

PRAY hard for us PLEASE in ALL areas! Especially financial! Thank you so much! Praise Jesus for the bad too! Hopefully good is on its way. Thanks!

Please pass this around - PLEASE. The more prayer the better!

Carolyn "Carrie"
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Thank you so much for your prayers and your non-judgemental way of praying for us. I know God can help us. We are trying. We love God VERY much. Thank you so much. Keep praying for us ok? Its really nice to have the support of God's people. Thank you.
Carolyn Johnson

 

They do have that but you have to have good credit and we don't. We are young and don't have enough credit for the bank to do that either. So, UGH! frustrating. Thanks for the prayers though. And thank you for thinking of me enough to read my request and pray for me. God Bless you.

 

I did email our pastor....So,I believe he does. Thank you so much for praying and I appreciate the email. It means alot to me.
Carolyn

 

Well, I believe there are no more checks out there. Joshua, my husband, swiped his check card. So, there is nothing we can do. We made the error and have to live with it. We are just asking for prayer. Thank you for your advice.
Carolyn

 

Well, right now I have contacted our church but I don't think they have a fund like that. But thank you for the idea. I wish they did.

 

Hi There - Thank you for writing me. We are hanging in there. We are still in debt. We haven't even slightly recovered from this yet.

Health wise - I am quite ill.

Josh is stressed.

Pray for us to go to Church on Sunday ok? We need God so badly.
Carolyn