I've never posted here before, so I hope that you all don't think I'm terrible, but I thought that maybe this would be a good place to ask about some things that I really don't feel like I can talk to anyone about right now. Maybe I am imagining it, but there have been some things strong on my heart lately and it seems like the pastor has been preaching about every single thing. A couple Sundays ago I had been thinking about how I was so scared to surrender my life to Christ, and it didn't seem like I could, even, etc. Well, he preached about the specific things I'd been thinking about. I finally talked to my dad about it and everything, well, next Sunday morning, in Sunday School, the pastor preached about everything I'd talked to my dad about. The truth is that I have been getting so confused. No offense to anyone here, but you go to one Fundamental Baptist church, and they preach salvation through faith, repentence, etc...you go to another and they preach repentence is a work, etc...you go to another, it's lordship salvation (which has myriad meanings)...you go to yet another, and it's Calvanist doctrine. And that's only salvation, there are lots of other doctrines that vary, too. To be honest, I don't even know what to think anymore. Especially since Fundamental Baptists are supposed to have the truth and are against other religions and such for having different doctrines. You can ask ten Fundamental Baptists about a passage of Scripture, and you will probably get at least 7 different interpretations. I've been to a lot of Fundamental Baptist churches growing up. Anyway, to tell the truth, like I said, I am CONFUSED! Honestly, I've been leaning more and more towards Agnosticism...I don't know how you can know anything about the Bible when everyone believes something differet, even Fundamental Baptists. I was heavily considering writing up a letter or whatever about why I am "this close" to becoming Agnostic (theistic-I'm not an atheist), and giving it to my pastor and seeing what he could say about it, but I didn't really have the courage, and besides, it would break my mom's heart. Well, Wednesday night the pastor preached about being satisfied in Christ. How if someone is truly saved, they will be satisfied with Christ and will not be looking anywhere else (i.e. other religions, etc). So, I am wondering if someone who is truly born again could possible turn Agnostic, and if anyone of you thinks that what he preached about being satisfied in Christ and not looking elsewhere applies to me. Thanks for your input and I am really sorry this is so long. I truly am not trying to attack fundamentalism or anything like that. I have always wanted to do right, etc., please understand, it is just that I don't even know what to think sometimes, I don't understand how anyone can be sure of what to believe when there is so many different doctrines and such. Thanks again.