I have been attending this college night church called paradigm fx now for this past semester. The only problem is that after half of an entire year I still don't feel at home. I go to it every now and then with friends but most of the time I catch myself there alone. We have this social time before it starts each week and every week I find myself alone in a corner. Why is it so hard for other to come up to me? I know a lot of the people there and they know me. I say hi to a few of them but after that they leave and start talking with others and there I am floating around feeling completely uncomfortable by myself again. Almost every time that I go to church I get this same feeling, I'm not wanted there. I love god and I love to worship him but I keep feeling this feeling that no one cares that I am there. Honestly if I stopped showing up there would be very very few people that would notice and even less that really cared. Why is it that church seems this way to me? I try to make friends with the people that are there but they don't ever seem to really care. Some know my name while others don't. I sit alone in church whenever I go alone and every once in a while someone will sit by me but like tonight the person who sat by me didn't even really say a word to me but the other people sitting in front of me. I go to church alone and I leave alone and while I am there I am alone, I worship god so I know he is with me but other than that I have no relationships with the other people in church and I just feel like I am not meant to be there. I don't know... maybe if I stopped attending then I wouldn't be placed in such a situation that is so horrible that I will stop to feel this way. Instead of worshiping the lord at church I find myself crying in prayer just because I am alone.