I don't think so. I noticed one thing. I'm sick of always being nice and not saying what I really mean.In the past I often did not say anything when I was angry at somebody for a reason I rather swallowed my anger. But this is even more unhealthy. It eats you from the inside and it also makes you feel like a whimp, like somebody who doesn't even have the guts to stand up for himself. I cannot imagine that as a christian you have to be this way. I noticed that letting your anger out can feel really liberating. At least you have said what you thought instead of swallowing it. I thought about it and this is simply not the person I want to be. I don't want to be like this anymore and never say my opinion. In the past I also said yes even though I mean not. When somebody asked me for a favor I said yes even if I didn't want to. I'm really sick of this. I only did things because I felt like I "had to" do them, because I thought that as a christian or as a "nice person" you simply "have to" do this. But the problem is when you say yes even though you mean no you cannot even respect yourself anymore and then you start hating yourself. I have sometimes done things and later on I was so angry at myself for doing it that I felt like beating myself up. I think it's better to be true to yourself. Or what do you think? It simply cannot be healthy to try to be nice and patient and tolerant and never say what you think.