I don't intend for this to be a discussion of the merits of each side but rather the experience of weighing them. At times in my life I've waffled between Calvinism in some form and Arminianism in some form. Right now, I just don't know. I can see both ways, but I'm just not sure which is correct because I see both perspectives in the Bible. I know they can't both be true, but I'm wondering if anyone else has been in this state for very long.