Is there even a way to know it? I mean it's also not difficult to make up religious sounding stuff like: My child, my child, I love you so much. I am your father and I have given you eternal life and I will draw close to you if you draw close to me. Remember, those which follow me receive eternal life but those which stay in the world will be condemned..... I just made this stuff here up, but as you can see it's not difficult at all to make up religious talk and to sell it as "prophecy" from God. I bet that among baptists prophecies or words from God aren't very popular. But among charismatics and pentecostals they are more popular. The problem is what do you do if you get such a prophecy? How do you know it's real? Can you even know it? Would you take it seriously? You know what I don't like about this stuff? It makes you kinda submit to others. There are always those people in charismatic churches which are more spiritual than you and have more gifts and yadda. And since these people are obviously more spiritual the others which are less spiritual kinda submit to them and if such a person gives you a prophecy then you don't know what to do with it. I don't like this at all. I don't want to hear from somebody what God is supposed to be saying to me. Such prophecies could be right but they also could be wrong. I feel like many people think that they can speak for God. Think about it, if somebody is REALLY speaking for God then these are God's words! This would mean that such a prophecy has the same level as the bible because both are God's words! I don't know, but I feel like some people like saying such stuff. I also notice it in my house meetings. There is a woman which sings and plays the guitar and it's always the same, at the end of the worship session or whatever you want to call it she starts singing in tongues. This is usually the time where I become annoyed and hope that it'll soon be over because I think that this stuff is pretty awkward. And then she also often sings stuff where you don't know if these are her own thoughts or if she thinks that she's talking for God. Stuff like: I want to bless you. I love you. I'm your God, don't be afraid, I will erase all your problems and so on.... I sit there and don't know what she's doing. If these are her own thoughts or if this is supposed to be God speaking through her. This is very confusing and I think that all these things open up the door for spiritual abuse. Imagine you're looking up to a christian who has all kinds of gifts, or at least pretends to have them, and then this person gives you a word from God which totally demoralizes you and which drags you down then you have the problem of not knowing wether this was from God or not and then you become alienated from God now knowing if God is really like this or not, isn't this terrible? :tear: When I think about all these things then sometimes I think wether it's not be better to simply be alone as a christian and to not have anything to do with other christians. I have to say that before I knew any other christians it was a totally different feeling. It was just me and God in a world of non-christians. Somehow this felt cool, kinda outlawish. But the first time where I was confronted with other christians I felt totally strange. They seemed so weird to me, I couldn't relate to them at all and then I thought maybe I'm simply not supposed to be a christian because I'm not like them. Somehow I feel like if you want to be a christian you just have to become a member of a church and then you simply have to accommodate and be assimiliated no matter if you like it or not. But most of the christians which I know are so strange and I can't relate to this and I also don't want to become like them but somehow this is what you have to do as a christian. You have to go to a church and you have to deal with people which you usually would not even talk to because they're so weird. This sucks. Sometimes when I'm in church or in the house meeting I have moments where I feel like waking up from a booze-up and coming back to my senses and then I think: What in the world are you doing here!? Because I feel like I'm in the wrong movie. I do things which I would never have done a few years ago. I go to church and watch the weirdest things which make me feel like I'm in a bad movie. I see charismatics dancing in totally awkward ways, waving flags,lying on the floor and making things which are simply so awkward that I wish I could simply vanish into thin air to escape these situations. I guess if somebody of my family came to this church they would think the people there are lunatics and sometimes I also ask myself wether they are normal. But it's like as a christian you simply have to deal with these people because they are also christians. But sometimes I have these moments where it's like I'm looking at myself from the outside and then I think about wether I have not simply gotten into some sect and wether christians aren't simply weird people.