Yesterday I listened to a sermon about the atonement called "Christ's Completed Atonement" from Dr.Alan Cairns (maybe somebody knows him) which I downloaded at sermonaudio.com and I could only marvel. I could have read the same passages which he talked about but I would never have gotten these insights. This drags me down. Am I too dumb or what? When I listen to such a sermon then everything becomes so tangible but if I had read these passages alone I would not have understood much. I also wouldn't have gotten all these ideas. This is really great. Why do I not have this wisdom and understanding? If I understood the bible so well then reading would also be fun.