I stumbled across this site here which claims that what Jesus taught was not new at all and that the Essenes taught the same stuff already decades before Jesus, is this true? If this is really true then I would say we have a huge problem. http://www.thenazareneway.com/essene_and_christian_parallels.htm This stuff is really becoming too much for me, nearly every single day I get upset because of something like this, why doesn't God simply appear to me then everything would be fine, I would never have to worry about such things again and could finally enjoy life instead of struggling with such claims. I'm so sick of this multi front battle. One day it's about the authenticity of the bible, then it's about the canon, then it's about Jesus, then it's about evolution, then it's about archaelogy and it simply never ends! What kind of life is this? The only time when I get some rest is when I sleep. That's a great life, really. It's so ridiculous, like in a bad movie. While I'm struggling with such stuff which makes me pull my hair out other christians are happy and full of peace and joy and don't even worry about such things because they experience God unlike me. Some become christians and everything becomes better and others become christians and all the problems begin.And when I listen to sermons and hear how others experience God all the time and how they get prayers answered then it's totally depressing. All christians seem to be doing so well. Nobody has problems or doubts, no. They're all doing totally fine.... I cannot stand this stuff anymore. Hearing how others talk about how they enjoy being a christian and how they enjoy God's love is like a punch in the stomach.