I'm trying to think of another job, and I'm not sure what that is right now. Write now...wish that would work, ha! Second kiddo picked her college and I'm happy with her choice. Solid Baptist place, it seems, and the first has gotten more on her feet after the initial dunk into the world of adulthood, which had me concerned, so both of those are PRAISES! It's not cheap though. So, now to find something I can do that can be done...lupus makes that really tough. It's really tempting to apply for disability, but I really want to do this. Then there's days like today - getting ready for work with everything screaming, and wondering how on earth I'm going to add MORE, but I'm also not going to just sit around all summer. (work at a school, so summers off) There has to be something, and something that will work past summer and go with the school schedule next year. Right? Of course right. And something my body will cooperate with. I meant to talk it over with my rheumy, but he had an emergency and my appt. got cancelled...until mid summer because they are always that backed up. Like I said - overwhelmed, because stuff like that really throws things off when dealing with work and talking to him about when to take meds for things to work out with schedules and such. It's all a balancing act to make things work and be able to keep going.... I'd really appreciate your prayers. It's all rather insane right now with things changing and trying to get it set up and figured out.