Suicide

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  1. ajg1959

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    In the next few weeks I am going to end my life. I have a few legal things to get straightened out so that my son will be provided for, but I am tired of living.

    I am not mad at anyone, not even God. And i hope that God understands and forgives me for what i am goin to do, but I have to do it.

    I cant stand myself. I am an utter failure, and a disgrace to my family. They dont even talk to me. I am all alone.

    I am not killing myself because of anyone else but myself....I hate myself.

    Please pray that God answers my prayers for forgiveness, and has mercy on me.

    AJ
     
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    I hope this is some kind of joke.

    Suicide is the most selfish thing any one can do. The only only you will be hurting are those who love you. And, yes, there are those who love you if you realized it or not. Surely you don't want your son to grow up without his dad.

    Please reconsider. Talk to someone about it.
     
  3. Amy.G

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    Please do not do this thing to your son. He will never recover.:praying:
     
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    AJ, the fact that you are talking about is evidence you are not totally convinced. You do need professional advice, and I beg that you visit with your pastor or doctor and seek professional help.

    Cheers,

    Jim
     
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    Please, join me in reporting this, if anyone knows this man contact the police.
    This could be for real.
     
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    I am astonished at the answers that berate AJ. He could be clinically depressed.

    AJ, can you go to a doctor and see if you are clinically depressed? It sounds like that may be the problem. It could be from a chemical imbalance in the brain.

    I don't think you want to do this - you want to be talked out of it or you would not have posted this.

    Please spend some hours asking God for strength to resist this desire and for his help. The more you talk to God the more you will be able to resist this.

    Then see a doctor or psychologist to see if medication may help.
     
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    Very disturbing indeed.:tear:
     
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    Run to Jesus!AJ, I've been right where you're at!

    The BEST thing anyone ever said to me was this, "Y'know, it sure is stupid for somebody to kill themselves."

    God used this to stab me right in the heart and prevent me from causing others more harm than I could ever have imagined.

    That was 36 years ago!

    I have some experience in dealing with this situation, personally.

    I know some preachers that have come through this very thing with GLORY in their soul!

    If you go to the shrinks they'll convince you of something the Lord has all power over in the first place.

    Seek professional help, I beg you, but don't ever forget that Jesus can do what the doctors could never do!

    I know this might not help, but this preacher LOVES you! How? I've been where you're at!

    Run to Jesus!:godisgood:
     
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    The thing is no one has "berated" AJ, they HAVE berated what he's talking about doing!

    "Suicide" is not "AJ"!

    Suicide is the coward's way out of something they have control over, RUN TO JESUS! AJ! RUN TO JESUS! ( and away from these that conjure up things like this and attack people. That is what you're trying to get away from in the first place!)

    Face it, people will let you down, but Jesus NEVER let anyone down!
     
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    AJ

    Dude---------as moderator of this forum I monitor and read many posts literally every day------including your posts---------and everytime I read whatever you post I say to myself-------"This guy has it together-----he's got a brain on his shoulder and knows how to use his mind!"------you are one of the guys I wouldn't mind meeting----I'll even buy your coffee, coke, supper----whatever

    What sort of "rock and hard place" do you find yourself in?? Whatever it is----dude-----you can make it!!! Chances are---you are panicing over something you feel you have lost control of--------hang in there------stay in contact with someone--------a brother, sister, aunt, uncle, cousins--------even us on the BB---------they can be a help -------- we can be a help-----------no panic in Heaven---Only plans---------and the Lord Jesus wants YOU in on them right here on Earth-------think about it

    Your friend,
    Bro. David
    aka Blackbird
     
  11. mcdirector

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    aj - I am reading and praying for you! With the others, I beg you to think of your child and wife.

    Post back to us please!
     
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    I concur to what Blackbird said...
    YOu have no idea what your posts mean to me.
    God has plans for you that you cannot imagine right now..

    Listen to the word of God...Jeremiah 33:2-3
    (2) Thus saith the LORD the maker thereof, the LORD that formed it, to establish it; the LORD [is] his name;
    (3) Call unto me, and I will answer thee, and shew thee great and mighty things, which thou knowest not.

    Trust God.
    He will not let you down.
     
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    DON'T do it - you will be in heaven soon enough but you will be there when God wants you there.

    BTW, not relevant but are you the same poster who complained about being ignored on here? I'm sorry if this board has made you feel even worse.
     
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    AJ, I concur with Bro. Blackbird and Bro. Tim. I love your posts. I agree with you all the time. I need a friend on this board!

    We love you!

    :1_grouphug: :love2: :1_grouphug: :love2:
     
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    AJ, I hope you are reading these replies. I truly hope you owe us an apology for a terrible joke. But, just in case you truly are in need the one thing you can count on is that Jesus does Love YOU!

    Yes, Jesus Loves AJ. We may let you down but Jesus will never let you down. The answer to your problem may not be what you have in mind but God will bless you if you follow the plan he has for you.

    1 Corinthians 10 : 13
    No temptation has overtaken you except such as is common to man; but God is faithful, who will not allow you to be tempted beyond what you are able, but with the temptation will also make the way of escape, that you may be able to bear it.

    1 Cor 10:13 (NKJV)

    You see AJ the Bible, GOD'S WORD, even says that God will provide a way of escape in a manner that you can bear.

    AJ, I am truly praying for you and I am going to give you my number in a private message. AJ, I will answer and and listen if that is what you need. Then maybe together we can pray.
     
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    AJ if this is for real, you need a doctor, you need medication, you sound like your suffering from depression. It's easy to feel this way and to give into it. But you can do better then suicide.
     
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    Our Saviour is a God of hope and forgiveness who loves the unloveable, forgives the unforgiveable and befriends the rejected tax collectors, prostitutes and lepers. He is the God of 2nd chances, 3rd chances and 70 times 7 chances.

    Turn to God in this dark hour and talk to a pastor, counselor, mentor, old friend, doctor, psychiatrist even a stranger to hear what God is trying to say to you right now.
     
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    I think many of us have felt like you feel, at one time or another, AJ. I know I have (before I was saved).

    I sat down and did some serious thinking. I even wrote a suicide note to my husband and each one of my children.

    In writing those notes, I started to sob, realizing what my absence would mean to each of my loved ones and how much it would hurt them.

    My selfish act might put me out of my misery, but it would be with my family forever. I decided that was not the way to go because, basically, I am not a selfish person, but a 'giver'.

    I went to a doctor, got some medication for depression, and then got into a therapy group.

    The bottom line was all I had been thinking about was myself...not others. When I started thinking of my families needs and got my mind off of myself, I started giving more love, and as a result, I received more love.

    If you have Jesus in your life, you have much more than I had at that time.

    Now I realize that I have a job to do down here, a job that no one else on earth can do. When that job is finished, Jesus will take me home, and I don't intend to go one minute sooner for He has my days numbered.

    I just prayed for you. This is one of those times that, if you let Him, He will pick you up and carry you across the sand.

    Let go and let God.

    Blessings,
    ┬žue (been there and came back)
     
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    Sue, AJ, I remember wanting to kill myself even after I was saved.

    Back in March 1998... I had a lot of pressures, a lot of failures, and I felt like I had to end it. Even after being called to preach in 95... I felt like I had let God down for a few things I had gotten myself into... I felt I let my family down because of some bad decisions, and I couldn't pay back what I owed.

    We owned a Ford Escort at that time.. that used more oil than gasoline...
    My plan was after I got paid on a Thursday, i would drive to Morgantown. (3 hours away) Get a hotel room, and kill myself there.
    I got paid, and told my wife that I had to go to town... I started up I-79.

    The song "I hear mercy calling" played on the radio... and it touched my heart. I pulled over and called my wife from a rest area pay phone. Told her what I was going to do and that I would always love her...

    I got back in my car, and that song played again! I kept going though...
    I mentioned the oil... I had to get a quart of oil because I had drove 100 miles since I put the last quart in! I told you it was a leaky car!
    I got off the Gassaway exit of I-79, went into Krogers, bought a quart of oil, went out to the car and put it in... I got back in my car... and guess what... That song played again! (different station though this time)

    That got my attention! I pulled over, had a heart to heart talk with God...
    I heard him loud and clear that He loves me.. and had plans for me if only I would submit to him COMPLETELY. (I had been riding the fence back then)... Then I drove the backroads home... (After calling my wife from Gassaway) 2 hours later, I was walking into my house.

    Later, I found out that I had angels (human or spiritual.. IDK.. but they were still angels) around me the whole time. When I first called my wife, she called *69 and the payphone rang that I was calling on.. a man picked up the phone, and told her which way I went. She called the State police, and they were watching for my car.

    The way I came back home took me past the first church I ever pastored 2 yrs after that! And the Church where I spent 4 yrs as youth pastor (from 02-06) was off the Gassaway exit. Looking back now, I see the plans God had in place for me.. .and what I went through back then has prepared me to help others now.

    AJ... Surely you hear Mercy calling... listen to God in your heart. You know it is not the right thing.. Mercy is calling out your name, brother!
    God has plans for you.. and no matter what you have done, neglected to do.. or even if you haven't done anything... God can, and will, use your situation today to help others if you allow him to... But you have to be living for God to use you.

    Read these posts.. .people care for you.
    I have even had a phone call from someone in my church telling me she is praying for you.. .and she is not even a member here on BB.

    People care about you. I care about you. You are a true voice in this world of darkness... don't lose that voice.

    Love you Bro!
     
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  20. mcdirector

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    the brink of despair is a place we have all been as you can see, AJ. I'm praying for you today!

    Bitsy
     
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