This board has been a blessing from the Lord overall to me, and have established many friendships here, but have concluded that my time here after eight years needs to come to an end. When my presence causes more negative than positive, that is the only thing one can do. First I want to say, the administrators and moderators have a tough job, and cannot catch all that is said. They graciously donate their time and should be thanked for it. The second point is that I want to apologize to all those who are my friends, some of who saw this coming, the posts from me they had to read. I am not going to get into names, but when I offer repeated apologies, both publically and privately, and it has the net effect of increasing the hatred and four infractions, time has come to an end. I hope for two individuals, you feel good, because in a sense you won. I am literally worn out from the anger towards me from two brothers in Christ at every post, every thread. My problem has always been, I stay quiet for a while, ignore, avoid, till finally, I get enough and lash out. I cannot live like this anymore, as this is equivalent to murder according to the words of Christ in Matthew. It is wrong, just plain wrong. Scripture says get along with everyone as well as you know how. In this case, after the apology, I have no idea what else to do, and am not going to continue the pattern. It hurts the board, makes the job of the moderators harder, and they have enough problems. It is a terrible example to an outside lost world looking in on the board. God's blessing on each and everyone of you, your families, and your ministries.