I am very very depressed and cast down right now. I have had 4 or more churches seriously consider me as pastor and even to the point of voting only to cast me down. All of them tell me they believe I am their next man of God and then lead me on a few weeks only to eventually cast me down. For example, this past week I had one in Arkansas call me to preach last week, and the search committee was even telling me the vote was a formally that everyone was praying for me. This morning they call me to tell me I was shot down. I have many others ask me to preach only to never call me back or let me know anything. I have felt God really wanted me to Pastor most of these churches, and have felt most of them were not following God's will. I have even went as far as to volunteer to be an Associate Pastor to get some training only to be shot down. I am supposed to preach at a church this coming Sunday, but I am seriously considering calling them and cancelling. I must admit I am having serious thoughts of not pastoring or preaching anymore, but I know that is not what God wants. I have to admit I am very frustrated, irritated, and depressed about the whole system pastors have to go through to find a church. I will be the first to admit the messages I get from my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ tend to step on a lot of toes. I am a very old style type of preacher who preaches a tear-filled hell fire and brimstone message a lot of times. It is the type of messages the Lord gives me. I have to do what he tells me. I am one who gets straight of the truth. What is very depressing is I see a lot of preachers who are preaching a "psycho babble" getting a lot of churches. While the ones who are preaching the truth of God's word is sitting still waiting for a church to serve God. I know the devil is attacking me cause he always does. I just don't know what to do anymore. Please pray for me and my family as I get on my knees and ask God to help me.