Gal 2:20 I am crucified with Christ: nevertheless I live; yet not I, but Christ liveth in me: and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by the faith of the Son of God, who loved me, and gave himself for me. I ask myself what does it mean when Paul said that from now on no longer he lives but Christ through him? Does this mean complete denial of yourself and only working in the ministry full time? Does this mean living like Paul and not having anything in this life? Paul had nothing. He really lived 100% for Jesus. He had no nice house, no hobbies, no family, nothing. He really did that. But how can a normal christian say that no longer he lives but Christ through him? Isn't this dishonest? I couldn't live like Paul. And when I know this then wouldn't it be hypocritical if I said that from now on no longer I live but Christ through me? Paul was on a totally different level. He was so determined. But he also saw Jesus. If Paul had not had these experiences with Jesus then maybe he would not have become so radical. Normal christians do not have such experiences. Maybe this also plays a role, I don't know. But I think it makes a difference in your determination if you saw Jesus or not. It's the same with heaven. Can you imagine heaven? I can't. But when I cannot imagine something then it's much harder to focus on it and to look forward to it. But if I had seen heaven then most likely I would be much more determined.