My faith can be shaken so easily

I feel miserable at the moment cause my faith is once again shaken.
My faith can be shaken so easily.For example I just read that water has been found on mars and then I asked myself what effects this discover will have.Does it prove the evolutionary theory or does it support it ?The problem is that all these things shake my faith and make me doubt. Whnever I talk about God with an atheist and he bombards me with all these theories about the big bang and all that stuff then I feel miserable afterwards and my faith is shaken.
It's not that I lose it but it takes a while to get over this. The problem is that I have never really experienced God, while other christians have done that.
Others talk about how God touched them, or others had visions of Jesus. I had none of that. I am sure that as soon as God reveals himself to me all these questions and doubts will be over cause when this happens his existence becomes a fact, but what if it'll never happen ?
And doesn't Jesus say that only a bad generation asks for signs ? What does this say about my faith when I need a sign to truly believe ? This makes me feel really bad, I feel so unworthy cause I am not able to believe without a sign.
Sometimes I'm scared that God might not exist and that all the miracles which happen today during evangelisations are only made up.
Sometimes I doubt everything and even if somebody tells me that God encountered him, then I think to myself that maybe this guy is just nuts and made it up.Am I the only one with these problems ?

 

And what about the opposite ?
What if somebody believes in God not because of the bible but because of testimonies from other christians ? Is this okay ? And is the existence of the bible reason enough to believe in God or does it take more to make us believe ?
I am not sure, but just because the bible exists doesn't mean it's also true. I think that it takes more to believe in God.

 

I'd rather believe in God and be wrong, that not believe and be right.

But this is not real faith. Believing simply to be one the safe side isn't okay in my eyes.
I mean God knows wether you believe or wether you do not believe.

As for God creating the world in 6 days or not.
I think the bible doesn't lie. Why should God create the world in millions of years and then say he did it in 6 days ?
A God who created all of this doesn't need millions of years. When the bible cannot be taken literally then we have a huge problem, cause then we can also start to think about wether Jesus meant everything which he said literally. Then it won't take long and the first people will say that hell doesn't really exist and that it was just a metaphor.

 

Well, this is easier said than done.

 

Yes, but the problem is that I will always be vulnerable to doubts and arguments against God as long as it's not absolutely sure that God exists.This is the problem. Whenever I have to face theories about evolution or other stuff it confuses me and drags me down.
Whenever I have doubts I freak out and become frantic. Once I thought that I had found a controversy which could impossibly be explained and I already felt like my faith is over and that God doesn't exist and it was terrible.
It left me being exhausted all the time. Whenever I have doubts it affects my whole life. I cannot be happy as long as these doubts and questions have not been answered.
But I cannot answer all these questions. I cannot answer most questions. This is why I always have to ask somebody, but what if I don't find somebody to answer them ?
I am always depending on people to help me out, but one day I maybe won't have people to answer my questions and then I'm lost cause as soon as a question arrives which I cannot answer I'll not be able to defend my faith.
I have to defend my faith against doubts all the time, this is really hard and it takes all my strength. I wish this would finally end and the only way to end this would be to encounter God.
I also want to know that God loves me and that he accepts me. You will now say that I already know it cause the bible says so, but hearing it from God is still different.I just want to feel loved and know that he loves me and that he knows my problems, this would so fantastic.

 

@ Christ4Kildare

No, I don't have christian friends at all, in my town there is not much going on and in my church there are only old people.

@ blackbird

But only focusing on the bible also isn't good in my opinion. I mean many people only read the bible and that's it. The bible has become their god, they don't even try to communicate with God or don't have expectations.
If God exists then he can also communicate with me without using the bible.
It cannot be the solution that you have doubts now and then, this is simply sick. I want a real relationship with God.If I call him father and talk to him and the other day I doubt that he even exist, how do you think does he feel ? This cannot be the solution.
But it's impossible not to have doubts from time to time especially when you are confronted with all these theories. It's also scary that all the other christians experience God but I don't experience him. Why can't I speak in tongues or do other things ? When nothing works, then it's normal that you get doubts.

@ Watchman

Actually I think that the evolutionary theory is silly, but even though I don't believe in it it's still able to make me doubt and this is the problem. Since my faith can be shaken so easily I cannot even talk to other people about it, cause it could really harm my faith. How can I ever be of use for God when I cannot handle this ?
Others told me that they also used to be like me and that they also got doubts until they encountered God and from this day on everything was clear and nothing could shake their faith anymore. This is what I'd like to have.

Imagine scientists find a sceleton of a man who was crucified and say that this sceleton belongs to Jesus cause everything fits, the age, the holes in the hands and feets etc...
Then I would maybe fall off my faith, while other christians which have really experienced Jesus would simply think that it's another trick from the devil. This is the huge difference. As soon as you've really experienced God nothing can harm you any longer. I am vulnerable, while others cannot be harmed in any way.

Imagine men like Billy Graham or other famous men of God, do you think they also doubt God from time to time ? I don't think so. God has revealed himself to them and they don't doubt at all, nothing can harm their faith.

 

I'm still 22.
I have been a christian for 2 years and 9 month.
Since I don't know any christians in real life I didn't make such a huge progress ar first. I had to find answers to a lot of questions on my own.
I also choose to believe but like I said I am vulnerable. I fear that maybe one day I'm confronted with questions which I cannot answer and then I might lose my faith. I cannot defend my faith against every question.

 

Dan,
I know many of the arguments of creationists.
Actually what I really desire is simply having a real relationship with God. Why isn't this possible ? Why can't I feel God's love and feel his presence and why can't I ask him things and he replies ? I don't think that my expectations are too high cause I know that other christians have such a relatonship with God. I also want that. I listen to a lot of tapes from evangelists and they often talk about how God lets us feel his love and how his love changes us and enables us to love others. When I listen to that I cannot relate to it, cause I don't feel this love. Others say that hearing God's voice is soooo easy and quote from the bible where Jesus says that his sheep hear his voice. But I hear nothing ! No real voice and also no still small voice and this scares me.
When it works with all the others then why not with me ?

 

I have a good bible.
By the way, did you know that only the King James bible from 1611 is accurate ? Other bibles have been manipulated, but this is another topic....
You might find this here interesting:

http://www.chick.com/information/bibleversions/decision.asp

However, reading the bible is really hard for me and I forget most of it afterwards. It's not the case that I am able to keep quotes in my mind.