Hello. I have been saved since 2006, but have been struggling with porn for a long time.
Right now, it feels like I am two people. I pray for God's strength and He grants it and I have the strength to delete my secret folder and I'm okay for a week or two. I know during that time that seeking it, looking at it and acquiring it is a waste of time. I know it affects my intimacy with my wife. I know it's WRONG! I even pray for those involved in and pray for its eradication.
Then after a week or two, the temptation returns with the justifications. It's just pictures. I have no intention of ever cheating on my wife. It hasn't affected our intimacy in that I seek a "higher high" and maybe I just need to get it out of my system.
I covet prayer, first and foremost. But how can I maintain the strength to stay away from it. I looked at Covenant Eyes, but they were some of the most judgmental, hateful people I have every come across and I don't want anyone snooping on my computer. I thought about blockers, but then comes the inevitable question from my family, "why is this on here?" Yes, I hide it. I'm ashamed of it.
Any resources I can look at?
Need Prayer and Help with Pornography
Discussion in 'Prayer Requests & Praise' started by Sean Compass, Aug 9, 2021.
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Scarlett O. ModeratorModerator
Here's the thing with addiction and why it's hard to kick the habit.
The Bible says that we are to love the LORD our God with all our heart, soul, and might. When we are involved with addictive behaviors - THAT'S what we love with all our heart, soul, and might. THAT'S our god.
Porn, over-eating, bitterness, deep anger, drugs, alcohol abuse, and a whole lot more. We LOVE it. We don't love how we feel when its over or how it affects our relationship with others, but in the using of it to gratify ourselves - we LOVE it with all our heart, soul, and might. And its wasting away our lives
I was just reading in Jeremiah this morning in chapter 2 verse 5b. It said, "They followed worthless idols and became worthless themselves."
Also, verse 25 of the same chapter: "But you say, "Its no useI love foreign gods.and I must go after them."
Addicts excuse their behavior, justify it, and down play it. You've done so in your OP here.
You said, "It's just pictures. I have no intention of ever cheating on my wife. It hasn't affected our intimacy in that I seek a "higher high" and maybe I just need to get it out of my system."
You MUST come to grips with the FACTS that:
- It isn't "just pictures".
- You've ALREADY mentally, spiritually, and to some degree, physically, cheated on your wife.
- It HAS affected your intimacy. You just haven't talked to her about it. Do you bring those images to your mind when you are with her? Any of them? Do you need these images in your mind to desire your wife more? You have no idea what porn does to married couples.
- "Getting it out of your system" isn't the solution.
I am praying for you.
Step #1: Admit what this is and what it has done. -
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Sean, have you talked to your pastor yet?
What you also may need - is professional Christian counseling -
I'm sure you pastor can assist with that.