Agreed that it is not of myself and in fact I resisted and kicked against the goads.Hank, I was taught a similar stance in seminary, but as I matured and studied more I came to believe the "tension" is due to man's fallen nature. His eqo demands that he have some part in his own salvation. He hates the idea that his eternal destiny is beyond his control. It is natural for man, even redeemed man, to want to be the master of his own destiny.
Once we understand the true horror of our sin, and the true Holiness of God, and come to understand what Paul meant when he said in Romans 7:18 "For I know that in me (that is, in my flesh,) dwells no good thing" then, and only then, can we finally get a grip on what our salvation really is. All of Grace. None of ourselves.![]()
However, I personally did the "tap out" and He respected it and gave me immediate release of my anguish.
I presently have no problem whatsoever with Jesus being in complete control of everything in the life He has given me.
It gives me joy and comfort.
HankD