Yes, that is quite evident, as your title of this thread indicates.
I'm not giving up on you. Only our Lord knows why I feel sorry for you and haven't written you off many posts ago. I'm not giving up on you, yet.
Instead, I pray you'll remember these verses the next time you condem your church leader, your church and anyone else who doesn't doesn't share YOUR opinion(s) and endorse YOUR suggestions.
Matthew 7: KJB
Judge not, that ye be not judged.
2 For with what judgment ye judge, ye shall be judged: and with what measure ye mete, it shall be measured to you again.
3 And why beholdest thou the mote that is in thy brother's eye, but considerest not the beam that is in thine own eye?
4 Or how wilt thou say to thy brother, Let me pull out the mote out of thine eye; and, behold, a beam is in thine own eye?
Instead, I pray that in time, the Holy Spirit will help you grow in maturity in His word. I pray that you'll turn off the radio and listen to Him, instead.
Proverbs 2: KJB
3 Yea, if thou criest after knowledge, and liftest up thy voice for understanding;
4 If thou seekest her as silver, and searchest for her as for hid treasures;
5 Then shalt thou understand the fear of the Lord, and find the knowledge of God.
6 For the Lord giveth wisdom: out of his mouth cometh knowledge and understanding.
Give up on you, John? No. I'm praying for you instead.
1 Corinthians 13: KJB
11 When I was a child, I spake as a child, I understood as a child, I thought as a child: but when I became a man, I put away childish things.
12 For now we see through a glass, darkly; but then face to face: now I know in part; but then shall I know even as also I am known.